9 Jul 2014
3.42am
1

I GAVE MY HEART AND SOUL FOR HIM
I WOULD HAVE DIED FOR HIM
I WOULD HAVE GONE THROUGH HELL AND BACK FOR HIM.

I’D DO ANYTHING

AND HE THROWS ME AWAY LIKE A USED TOWEL

"YEAH, YOU WERE NICE TO HAVE AROUND WHILE I WAS ALONE, BUT MY NEW FRIENDS ARE BETTER SO I DON’T NEED YOU ANYMORE"

I TRUSTED YOU

I TRUSTED YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD
WITH ALL MY HEART
ONLY YOU

AND THIS IS WHAT I GET FOR IT

YOU TAKE MEHRAY AND TIVNAI AWAY FROM ME
THE ONES I HAD SINCE THEY WERE TINY
THE ONES I HAD ALL ALONG.

YOU DON’T HAVE THE RIGHT TO DO THIS TO ME

YOU CAN’T THREAT ME LIKE THAT

WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS

WHY MUST YOU KICK SOMEONE WHO IS ALREADY ON HIS KNEES

WHY DO YOU HATE ME SO MUCH?

9 Jul 2014
3.21am
45

s9mewherein6etween:

chaoticgeneticist:

s9mewherein6etween:

"Why is everything all 9r n9thing with y9u?"

"What do you expect me to do? Pretend like I am happy to live alone by myself? Pretend like my heart doesn’t feel like it’s going to explode on pain when you come for a visit once in a month and then leave again?
Not to cry when I get to see my children and know they will be gone again? Is that what you want me to do?”

"I w9uld see y9u m9re than 9nce a m9nth Karkat. Y9u are the 9nly 9ne T9 say 9therwise." Kankri murmured

"Just like my other friends come to see me more often, right? And it wouldn’t change any of the other aspects. I’d be better off not seeing you at all than being reminded over and over again how fucking much I miss you and hOW FUCKING BADLY I FUCKED UP THE ONLY THING THAT EVER FUCKING MATTERED IN MY LIFE!”

9 Jul 2014
3.06am
45

s9mewherein6etween:

"Why is everything all 9r n9thing with y9u?"

"What do you expect me to do? Pretend like I am happy to live alone by myself? Pretend like my heart doesn’t feel like it’s going to explode on pain when you come for a visit once in a month and then leave again?
Not to cry when I get to see my children and know they will be gone again? Is that what you want me to do?”

9 Jul 2014
2.33am
45

s9mewherein6etween:

chaoticgeneticist:

s9mewherein6etween:

chaoticgeneticist:

s9mewherein6etween:

"…What?"

"I had Mehray and Tivnai before I met you. They belong to me. And what about the eggs I carried out? If you take my home away and rip out my heart, you don’t have a right to take them away, too. You can’t leave me with nothing like that."

"Karkat… I didn’t d9 this t9 hurt y9u. Please d9n’t d9 this.. Please d9n’t.. G9d, I’ll d9 anything…please." He didn’t rise from the ground where he’d sunk to comfort Karkat. Instead he slumped, bowing, begging. "please Karkat…G9d…please.."

"So you really come into my life… and take even the little bit of family away I had before I met you? You really do this to me, Kankri? And expect me to go on living, with nothing, nothing at all, nothing but the clothes I wear on my body?!
FINE! TAKE KAI, TOO, I DON’T FUCKING NEED HIM EITHER, I DON’T FUCKING NEED ANYTHING!”

"Karkat.. Y9u d9n’t have n9thing… I’m still here f9r y9u. It’s just different n9w."

"I told you we can’t just be friends like fucking douchebags in fucking movies do. After everything we’ve been through it is not what feel and now what I ever will be feeling.
But you have parents. You have siblings. You have a fucking shitton of friends and people all around you.
I don’t have friends. I don’t have a father or a brother or anything. All I have are the children I raised before I even knew you. And the grubs I carried in my fucking body for months. They are the only family I have. I don’t have anything else to, anyone else to turn to.. and no other reason to stay alive. I don’t need to stay alive to spend the rest of my miserable life in a dark cave all by myself. I don’t fucking need that.”

9 Jul 2014
2.11am
45

s9mewherein6etween:

chaoticgeneticist:

s9mewherein6etween:

"…What?"

"I had Mehray and Tivnai before I met you. They belong to me. And what about the eggs I carried out? If you take my home away and rip out my heart, you don’t have a right to take them away, too. You can’t leave me with nothing like that."

"Karkat… I didn’t d9 this t9 hurt y9u. Please d9n’t d9 this.. Please d9n’t.. G9d, I’ll d9 anything…please." He didn’t rise from the ground where he’d sunk to comfort Karkat. Instead he slumped, bowing, begging. "please Karkat…G9d…please.."

"So you really come into my life… and take even the little bit of family away I had before I met you? You really do this to me, Kankri? And expect me to go on living, with nothing, nothing at all, nothing but the clothes I wear on my body?!
FINE! TAKE KAI, TOO, I DON’T FUCKING NEED HIM EITHER, I DON’T FUCKING NEED ANYTHING!”

9 Jul 2014
1.53am
8

s9mewherein6etween:

chaoticgeneticist:

s9mewherein6etween:

chaoticgeneticist:

s9mewherein6etween:

6ecause there’s n9 reas9n t9 d9 THAT 9ver it.

THERE IS NO REASON TO DO ANYTHING
BUT I NEED TO DO SOMETHING

G9 t9 y9ur m9irail if y9u a6s9lutely have t9 d9 s9mething. 9r y9ur father. S9mething safe

Please Karkat.

I DON’T HAVE A FATHER

I DON’T HAVE SOMETHING SAFE

MY HOME WAS MY SAFE PLACE TO COME TO

BUT I DON’T HAVE ANYTHING ANYMORE

Karkat please

Talk T9 y9ur m9irail.

HE IS AT FUCKING WORK I CANT TAK TO HIM!

9 Jul 2014
1.52am
45

s9mewherein6etween:

"…What?"

"I had Mehray and Tivnai before I met you. They belong to me. And what about the eggs I carried out? If you take my home away and rip out my heart, you don’t have a right to take them away, too. You can’t leave me with nothing like that."

9 Jul 2014
1.45am
45

s9mewherein6etween:

chaoticgeneticist:

s9mewherein6etween:

chaoticgeneticist:

s9mewherein6etween:

Kankri knelt and wrapped his arms around him. “I’m s9rry, Karkat. I’m s9rry.”

"I failed you. I failed you.. It’s over. I’ve fucked everything up. Everything!"
A hysterical tone is in your voice as you curl up tighter to hide yourself.

"Things just weren’t right anym9re. I care a69ut y9u, it’s just.. I’m s9rry.." he held him tight

Your body trembles as if it was about to burst.
"So… it’s just… all over…"

Kankri stroked his feathers. “Y9u will always 6e my first l9ve. I will always care f9r y9u and 6e here when y9u need me. 6ut this isn’t healthy anym9re and n9thing seems t9 w9rk. I l9ve y9u…. 6ut i just can’t take it.”

"After everything we’ve been through… this is how it ends.." You shove him away with your wings.
"Fine. But I won’t leave without what is mine."

9 Jul 2014
1.43am
8

s9mewherein6etween:

chaoticgeneticist:

s9mewherein6etween:

6ecause there’s n9 reas9n t9 d9 THAT 9ver it.

THERE IS NO REASON TO DO ANYTHING
BUT I NEED TO DO SOMETHING

G9 t9 y9ur m9irail if y9u a6s9lutely have t9 d9 s9mething. 9r y9ur father. S9mething safe

Please Karkat.

I DON’T HAVE A FATHER

I DON’T HAVE SOMETHING SAFE

MY HOME WAS MY SAFE PLACE TO COME TO

BUT I DON’T HAVE ANYTHING ANYMORE